Veronica Mars

Hello :)
I'm cooking Alfredo for dinner, yumm <3
It was Mum's birthday yesterday, I baked her a white chocolate mud cake, it was a success, which is a relief - i'd never baked a mudcake before then.
Today I watched Dracula and Scrubs, I love Scrubs :):)
I felt the need to write this pointless yet somewhat cheery blogpost because people seem to be concerned due to my last post being a bit depressing. Sorry about that :/

"I ran into this charter boat"
"You didn't see it?"
"So now I have insurance I'm covered"
"How could you not see a charter boat?!"
(While she runs around with a towel over her head) "Charter boat?? What Charter boat?"

I love that ad ^^^

Oooh Mum's putting Veronica Mars on <3
John wasn't allowed to leave his house to come over today because he's sick, he's in quarantine all locked up.

So I'm off to watch Veronica Mars and its awesomeness, later :)

Quote of the day: "Veronica Mars, saving the world one pointless act at a time"

Dancing With Tears In My Eyes

It's a new day, but it all feels old
It's a good life, that's what I'm told
But everything, it all just feels the same

Sorry I made your parents angry with you.
Sorry I can't be good enough to make you happy with me.
Sorry that you're disappointed in me.
Sorry I can't be smart enough.
Sorry I'm writing a somewhat depressing blog, if you don't like it then don't fucking read it.

Simple as that.

At my high school, it felt more to me
Like a jail cell, a penitentiary
My time spent there, it only made me see

Sorry that you get frustrated i'm never as hungry as you think I should be.
Sorry for what's to come.
Sorry if this upsets you, don't let it, it's not that important.
Sorry I cost you so much money.
Sorry you have to put up with me.

That I don't ever wanna be like you
I don't wanna do the things you do
I'm never gonna hear the words you say
and I don't ever wanna, I don't ever wanna be

I think that's it. Now if noone has any objections, I'm going to feel like absolute shit for the night, probably get lectures about how my life is perfect and I should be grateful, then I may or may not tell those people to fuck off.

Go to college, a university, get a real job,
That's what they said to me
But I could never live the way they want
I'm gonna get by, and just do my time, out of step while, they all get in line
I'm just a minor threat so pay no mind

I'm not saying my life is worse than anyone elses, I'm not saying noone understands, I'm just saying that I feel like shit. I'm allowed to feel like shit. And I'm allowed to have a shit blog post, because apparently all my writing is shit anyway.

Shake it once, that's fine
Shake it twice, that's okay
Shake it three times, you're playing with yourself, again

I need more angry music. Where's Kaileigh when I need her? She has heaps of angry music. If you have any angry music suggestions, please let me know.

You...don't wanna be just like you
What I'm sayin' is this is the anthem throw all your hands up,
Y'all got to feel me, sing if you're with me, you, don't wanna be just like you (just like you)
This is the anthem throw all your hands up, y'all got to feel me, sing if you're with me
Another loser anthem (whoa-oh)
Another loser anthem (whoa-oh)
Another loser anthem (whoa-oh)
Another loser anthem

My day was good until I got into legal studies, it was all downhill from there. I want to rewind back to lunch and just never get past that point in time.

Hold a double funeral, because a part of you will die along with me
I wish you thought I was dead, so instead of me you'd be depressed instead

Faking My Own Suicide

My exams are over :D Yay.

Extension wasn't bad, I remembered my essay and the creative response went alright, all round success :)

We should get jerseys
Cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine
Cause you're out of my league

Brady has been trying to convince me to watch two girls one cup, but he's not tricking me, he's pretending like its awesome or something. Silly boy.

I can not wait for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say
You're ok with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

You know what's weird? When you get told that your boyfriend was playing the drums without pants on, but they fail to add that he was still wearing his boxers until afterwards. There's this funny little moment where you don't know whether to laugh or be horrified, so you nervously laugh and judge their reaction. When they start laughing too, you know that it's more funny that terrible. But when Kass says 'Your boyfriend was walking around the music rooms with no pants on' you start to wonder all over again about the music students :P But there were boxers on at all times I'm told, so it's ok. Apparently drumming is hard with long pants on? I wouldn't know. Maybe it's just John's general dislike for pants? Either way, it's a funny thought :)

So Dylan is rudolf the reindeer. This started this morning when we were paying him out for his bad memory, and Ally suggested a sticker like you get at Dreamworld for kids that say 'Hi my name is......... If you find me I am lost. Please return me to........... on phone number .......... or take me to an information kiosk. Thank you.'

So we figure that Kass would be Dylan's contact person on his sticker, but Ally and I decided we'd ship him off instead in a box, with a carrott and air holes. But the carrott would attract a horse or reindeer, according to Ally, so I decided Dylan was the reindeer. We're shipping him off to Santa, coz Santa deserves presents too.

Kass thinks it's a great idea, and for good measure we're sending Dyl's evil cat along to the North Pole with him, because it looks at people funny, including me. Evil little thing. It's just staring and then it disappears and you don't know where it goes.

Maybe I'm just lucky
Cause it's hard to believe
That somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliché
To talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious
To everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on

Oh well.

That's irrelevant.

Musical rehearsals Sunday, yay :):)

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

Quote of the day: "What's so hot about twins anyway? That's incest! They're related!" "So? They're not related to me."

Well You Tickled Me;

Sooooooooooooo...

One more exam to go tomorrow afternoon - extension english. I don't like that they made that my last exam, because the relief of all my other exams when I've had the 'haven't failed' or the 'it's over now' feelings, in the back of my mind a little voice has said 'sure you're fine now, but when you get to extension, you're screwed'.

I'm not sure why I'm so scared of it. I've already done an extension assesment before, and I got a high mark. But there's something about an essay and a creative response all at once that's got my head spinning. I'm hoping I won't get my other two english essays confused with this one and instead of writing about Dracula, start talking cultural identity or Shakespeare. That could be awkward. Hahaha.

So I have my extension essay all written and ready to go, but here's the thing - it's a thousand and something words - not going to be able to write all that down in time and imagine and write a creative response. This will be interesting. Lucky I don't have a morning exam, I plan on writing and re-writing my essay until I can do it quickly. John will be impressed, what quality time? Hahaha whoops?

Enough about that.

Kass and I had a giggling fit in our maths exam because I made a pirate ship out of my formula sheet and drew on little pirates saying piratey, yet maths related slogans. I also plaited my hair in that exam, Miss Cohen said it looked 'beautiful' which was kind of her. I think she may have just been mocking my hair dressing in a maths exam though, i'm not sure lol.

There was a question in the maths exam about 'Perry' which made me think of perry the platypus off phineas and ferb, which made me have to hold my hands off my mouth to stop a laughing fit, because all i wanted to do was go 'Oh there you are Perry!' Which obviously I couldn't, coz they would have kicked me out. Maybe it would have been worth it, I would have got a laugh out of it at least. In my mind, this is how that would have gone down: Kaileigh would have gone 'omg perry!', John would have laughed, Kass would have pissed herself laughing, Brady would have said 'I really have to watch that show', Ally would look stressed coz she doesn't like exams and Dylan would have turned around and said 'I hate that show! Why does the platypus have a hat?! As if it isn't obvious it's still him!' Which would have started a perry the platypus/phineas and ferb debate, much to the chagrin of miss cohen.

So I have decided that I will calm the music students down, coz they're stressing over their music practical. How you ask? Simple. Guitar hero. Perfect plan. It's musical, fun, and me, Kaileigh and Ally would just kick their asses anyway, hence calming them down. I think it would work. Plus John wouldn't have to worry about double kicks and Brady couldn't break any strings. Everyone's happy :) Plus you don't need to tune guitar hero, and they seem to tune a lot.

My dog's sitting on my economics folder :/ Oh well, I don't need it and she seems comfortable.

Well considering I seem to be neglecting my friends on msn to write this, I should cut it short.

Quote of the day:
Ally: Are you hurt?
Brady: *curled over, wincing* yes.
Ally: Well you tickled me.

Brace Yourselves

Holy shit, this is going to be awful.

Countdown :)

Heyyyyy (:

I had today off school, because I woke up feeling like death warmed up. Still feel sick, but I figure one day off school in the week before exams is quite enough, two would be pushing it.

Dum de dum de dum

Umm I had something to say, but now it's kind of gone. Sorry about that.

Well I figure I should write something substantial, because as I am reminded by my cruel, I mean loving, boyfriend, I tend to ramble on a bit.

There's a documentary on tv at the moment about elephants and how they suffer from stress which makes them kill people. Sounds fair enough I suppose. Elephants have feelings too.

So ever had someone close to you find something out about you that you'd rather they didn't know, and they rather they didn't know, so they don't talk about it and you don't talk about it, but acting normal seems a little odd? Yeah that sucks, and is happening to me at the moment. I forget sometimes though, and everything will be normal and then i'll remember and want to run away and hide. Hahaha but it's funny now. So maybe not run and hide for too long, just until I'm distracted. I mean you have to laugh, it's pretty comical.

Could be worse :)

Exams are coming! Hide!!! Ergh I don't like them. Well noone does, but still, I feel the need to express my disdain for their existence. Grrrr.

Bella's home in two months. :D

I'm so keen, I wish it was sooner, but two months isn't that long at all. She's missed out on so much though. So much has happened, so much has changed, I bet it'll be weird for her to come back to everything so different. It's all stuff she knows about though, so that's good.

You know what's demeaning? Apparently I have a bedtime because I'm sick. :| And no, not from my parents. But from John. Because apparently I should rest and get better. A bedtime for crying out loud. A bedtime of 10! And Brady's backing him up. Betrayal hahahaha.

Oh well, I can't think of much more because I'm all drugged up on cold medicine, so I'll bid thee goodnight!

Wow, "bid thee goodnight" <-- that's what I get for writing an essay on A Midsummer Night's Dream, i've got Shakespeare on the brain.

If it wasn't amusing me, I'd delete that part, but I guess it shows you how lame I can be, yay? Hahaha

Quote of the day: "I'm an elephant! And don't you dare say it's because I'm fat and wrinkly, it's because I'm stressed." "So, fat and wrinkly ehh?"

Here We Go...

And I'm here, to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away

I'm angry. I guess thats the best way to describe it. I'm angry because I had to watch people I care about hurt. Also the inconsistency of our school, last time something like this happened there was no chocolate or chips, there was nothing at all. No support, no time out.

Tough luck, sorry about that, now get to class.

Who would've thought? It figures.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy that there was support, they needed it. But they're not the first, and when others needed it before them, it wasn't there. Maybe the system's changing for the better. I hope so.

It still pisses me off though.

Kaileigh was right, it just makes you want to go confront a teacher and demand an explanation, but I doubt we'd get one. So many unanswered questions.

Sorry for my angry little blog, but I needed to get this out of my sysetm before I do my English homework.

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

The worst thing is, I don't know who to be angry at. Maybe I'm not angry at anyone in particular, but all of a sudden, now I can think of someone to blame. Who started it all, who if they had any sense of decency about them, they wouldn't have done it. Then this would have never happened, there wouldn't even be the whisper of a consideration. And it's their fault my friends are hurting, one in particular. Does burn in hell sound cliche? I don't care, ergh I hate being this angry.

On a lighter note, get keen for the weekend. It'll be good :):):)

Until next time...

“Speak when you are angry - and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret.” - Dr. Laurence J. Peter

Saturday Night In The City?

Helllllllllllllllo :)

I just had fairy bread and coffee, so my mood has peaked from all the sugar and caffeine. I'll probs fall asleep in like half an hour if I don't have another coffee though, coz I was tired to start off with. Oh well.

Wedding Singer musical rehearsals were today. It was pretty fun. We didn't do much though, although Emily and I watched A Very Potter Musical on youtube on the projector, which confused a few people. But they loved it. Hahaha :)

Dylan wants me to blog about him. But I refuse, he can blog about himself :P

Dylan says:
blog about meeeeeee
xx Bec says:
hahaha
no
ill mention this though
Dylan says:
haha, i want more than a mention
make something up even, aslong as im there, and theres some substance to it

That's all you're getting dyl, soz.

I have an economics assignment I should be doing... hmm, oh well.

So I'm pretty happy lately, which is good. Not that I wasn't happy before, but my stress levels are decreasing, yay :) I guess I don't have anything wrong with my life, so I'm lucky, really lucky, so I won't even be hypocritical and complain about anything. Life is good.

Keen for this weekend :):):) Ellen, Sarah and Laura's combined birthday shindig <3 So keen, we haven't had a proper group get together in so long. I really miss them :)

I've decided I'm going to start driving more, and get over my fear of crashing and killing everyone. Surely I can't be that bad... right? Let's hope not haha

My nanna saw a picture of John and I on my wall today, and I'm poking my tongue out (facebook default, you've probably seen it) and this was how that played out:
Nanna - "That's a lovely photo of John, why did you have to ruin it?"
Me - "Ruin it? Huh?"
Nanna - "You pulled a face, you could have just smiled you know, poor boy"

And then she walked off. I feel loved. Hahahahaha

Well for fear of starting to ramble more than usual, I shall bid you good day :):):)

Quote of the day: "And don't suggest a giant slide or a trampoline... because we've already tried those"