Don't you worry what their bitter hearts are gonna say

Hey,
Don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out,
Or looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

[Chorus]
It just takes some time,
little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright. (alright)

Hey,
You know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough (good enough)
For someone else.

[Chorus x2]

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out, (feel left out)
Or looked down on.
Just do your best, (just do your best)
Do everything you can. (do everything you can)
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts (bitter hearts)
Are gonna say.

[Chorus x2]


FUCK I LOVE THAT SONG.

Thought I should share it's awesomeness with you :D

So I found out yesterday that there was a possibility an acquaitance through Vinnies, who had turned into someone I was quite close to had passed away. Today it was confirmed. This is one of those things where you wonder why this could happen to such a lovely lady. Probably the kindest, most generous women I've ever met, I guess it was just her time. I'm still in a bit of a state of denial, it won't hit me until I'm at the funeral :(

Quote of the day: Always be kind for everyone is fighting a hard battle - Plato

Mentos Gum

Heyyyyyy (: I'm chewing mentos gum, yay :)

So what has happened since I last blogged?

I got a boyfriend :) Yay John :)

I'm loving life, so noone try and bring me down :D

Had a day off normal school today for the musical today. Pretty much I didn't need it, I mean it was good fun and I'm glad I'm involved, but I don't need to practice being a wedding guest, which are the only scenes we did today that I'm in. They might be cutting the bridesmaid scene I'm in, which I'll be devo if they do and I have no idea what I do when I'm a 'Jersey girl', but Miss tells me I'll get to wear lots of hideous 80's inspired formal dresses :| Haha it actually sounds like fun. We'll look ridiculous, but it'll be fun.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
Youll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head. Yeah. In my head. Oh yeah.

Kaileigh got that song stuck in my head ^^

I've started planning my outfit for aamplify, it's hippie themed, so I think I'll buy some hippie dress or tie dye something, not quite sure yet ehh. Bec's going to lend me a dress. I love Bec. <3 <3 Get keen for aamplify :D

You take your lovers that you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine

Quote of the day: Remember that as a teenager you are in the last stage of your life when you will be happy to hear the phone is for you - Fran Leibowitz

Viva la Weekend

So I got my Legal Assesment out of the way today :D

Omg, this weekend will be so good. Tennis semis tomorrow (Saturday) morning, then chilling with Brady, Ally, John and Alex until 3:30. The at 3:30 going into town, and seeing some movie called Bounty Hunter with Sarah and John. The movie's supposed to be really good, and Jennifer Aniston's in it, and she goes alright, so it should be chilled :) Then staying at Sarah's the night, which is where Kaileigh will be too :D Pretty much have a weekend full of hanging out with my friends. I'm so keen :D :D

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

I'm now in the mood to watch Prince Caspian. Hmm. Maybe later.

Bella's online :) Yay :)

Well I'm off to give my attention to Bella, until next time.

Quote of the day: "Whenever I hear the word naivety I think of Jesus, you know that barn he was born in, it's called a naivety, with the donkey?" "Don't you mean nativity?" "Oh yeah, that one"

:):) xxx

Why Else Would I Be Up This Late?

Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep
I got a sick obsession
I'm seeing it in my dreams
I'm looking down every alley
I'm making those desperate calls
I'm staying up all night hoping
Hitting my head against the wall

Judge judge judge bitch bitch bitch. Keen for holidays, is all I'm going to say lol

Everyone's skitting up, calm down. Stop taking everything so seriously, have some fun, chill. I guess school might have everyone a tad stressed, and I sure know it's been stressing me out, but some perspective, courtesy of Miss Cohen set things straight. She's right, if you think of everything as one mark, for one subject, in your prelim year, it seems less daunting.

I've started to realise I'm somewhat of a jealous person. Interesting. I don't know why it bothers me, and I guess it's not bothering me a large amount, just an annoying little thing that plays in the back of my mind. I wish it would go away. :/

I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you leave

I should probably go to bed soon.

Ergh I can't get the thought of it out of my head, I'm going to send myself insane lol

Quote of the day: “When you have confidence, you can have a lot of fun. And when you have fun, you can do amazing things.”

Chocolate Nesquik

I'm drinking my chocolate Nesquik and listening to All Time Low, generally loving life.

Bella should come home early. I miss her heaps. Ergh stupid England, give me back my friend. July 16th is when she comes home I think. I may just go to the airport to pick her up... I wonder if anyone wants to come with me? We should go up as a group and surprise her. :D

So what's new? Got my maths test results back today, 93%, i'm happy with that :)

So I got my extension english work for the holidays: two narrative creative responses and one essay, plus the analysis work for the core text. There goes my social life :(

Oh and I have an RE essay and questions due Monday, so there goes my Sunday.

Oh well, I have Saturday, and that'll be heaps of fun :) My tennis semis are on Saturday, then I'm hanging out with friends in Moruya, yay :D

Now to share with you my tied first favourite song of all time: With Me by Sum 41

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go


Now you are enlightened. No need to thank me :P

Msn that doesn't work and internet that cuts out is the most annoying thing in the world for me at this very moment. Gahhh learn to work!!!

Well I should do some Legal Studies work, until next time :):)

Quote of the day: Knowledge is power, and power corrupts. So study hard and be evil.

Blah Blah Blah

Oh girl you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it

I'm in a bit of a Ke$ha mood, so forgive the random song quotes.

So what goes on? My tennis team made the semi finals yay :):) Had our twilight retreat yesterday. I wouldn't rave about it, but then again I wasn't in the best of moods to start off with, so maybe it wasn't that bad. Oh well, I think it was just the whole 'love yourself' theme that' we get every reflection day that made it all a tad cliche. Although the games were fun and for the most part the group discussions were interesting. Make the most of what you've got I guess. :)

You're looking like a tool and not a baller
You're acting like a chick why bother
I can find someone way hotter
With a bigger, well


I really stress that you should all watch 'A Very Potter Musical' on youtube. Even if you hate Harry Potter, it's still hilarious. It's a take off everything, and is probably the funniest youtube series things I've ever seen. But you have to watch a few of them to get into it, so if you're going to watch it at all, don't watch the first one and think 'hmm not so funny, might stop now' - keep watching it, skip the songs if you hate musicals, it's too hilarious to miss. :):)

Well that's my recommendation for the night.

So msn is saying everyone's offline, which is odd. Unless you use the old msn, or ebuddy, then you show up. So now I'm using old msn and its antiquity is frustrating, but people can see I'm online, so at least I can talk to my friends.

Last extension english lesson for the term today, coz Sir's going to be away next week. Win! A week free of a 7:30 school start. Ily life.

What else is new? Oh speaking of extension english, I'm currently watching a german, black and white, silent film in the classes - yeah just when you thought your text was lame, my german silent film just kicked its ass haha.

Well that's all folks.

Quote of the day: After eating an entire bull, a mountain lion felt so good he started roaring. He kept it up until a hunter came along and shot him. The moral: When you're full of bull, keep your mouth shut. - Will Rogers

You Know I Speak Whale

Awesome day :D So much fun. Bought a new dress and a vest, which i love. Brady jumped off the swings and ran into a table, was hilarious. Then Brady and John had swing wars, which was pretty funny to watch. They kept kicking at each other, nearly falling off in the process. Then John got cut because the little kids could spin around more than him. Haha, they had superior swinging skills. Showed up thos two who nearly kicked each other in the head, then got twisted and stuck. All in all, great day, so once again, I'm in a fantastic mood.

I just made a lasagne, yum :)

"But Sandy Plankton told me they only lived to 100"

Hahahaha mum just massacred the garlic bread, and doesn't know why dad's laughing at her. Hehe.

I'm in too good of a mood to blog, I'd rather be chatting and stuff, so I'll leave you here.

Oh wait! Get keen for twilight retreat! So keen!

Nemo's on. Ily nemo.

"Fin, noggen, dude!"

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball that's just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seems

Btw, I love life :D

Quote of the day: "You know I speak whale"

Why Must You Put It In Your Pants?

OMG I'M IN THE HAPPIEST MOOD!!!
YAYAYAYAYAY

Got my new haircut this arvo, and I love it. Absolutely adore it.

Now I aint saying she a gold digger...

Oh and apparently someone in year 11's going round telling year 10 boys I had sex with one of my guy friends? So just so everyone knows, I didn't. Not even close. So I have no idea where you're getting your information from, coz it's wrong. So sorry to be boring, but no illicit pre-marital sex with randoms for me. That is rather boring I suppose, but if I did do half the things I've heard I've done, I'd have a much more action-packed life. But that's the same for everyone.

Now that's out of the way, back to me having a great day :D

Handed in my Chinese narrative and did a maths test today, both great to get out of the way.

Keen for tomorrow, just hanging out with some friends after tennis, going to be good fun :):)

I love life. I'm so so happy it's weird. But in a good way.

My maths study was sabotaged in free period, so if I go awful in the test, I know who to blame :P

The new 5 gum - watermelon flavour - Tempest - is soooo good. I'm just sitting here with my gum and new haircut loving everything. You could probably start abusing me and I wouldn't care, I'm on a natural high :D

Woo Hoo Hooooo!
Woo hoo hooooo!
Debbie just hit the wall
She never had it all
One Prozac a day
Husband's a CPA
Her dreams went out the door
When she turned 24.
Only been with one man
What happened to her plan?

She was gonna be an actress
She was gonna be a star
She was gonna shake her ass
On the hood of White Snake's car
Her yellow SUV is now the enemy
Looks at her average life
And nothing, has been...
all right since

Bruce Springsteen, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she's uncool
Cuz she's still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985

Woo Hoo Hooooo!
(1985)
Woo Hoo Hooooo!

She’s seen all the classics
She knows every line
"Breakfast Club", "Pretty In Pink"
Even "St. Elmo's Fire"
She rocked out to Wham!
Not a big Limp Bizkit fan
Thought she'd get a hand
On a member of Duran Duran

Where's the mini-skirt made of snakeskin?
And who's the other guy that's singing in Van Halen?
When did reality become T.V.?
What ever happened to sitcoms, game shows,
(on the radio was)

Springsteen, Madonna
way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she's uncool
Cuz she's still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985

Woo Hoo Hooooo!

She hates time, make it stop
When did Motley Crue become classic rock?
And when did Ozzy become an actor?
Please make this stop, stop, STOP(tick tick tick) and bring back

Springsteen, Madonna
way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she's uncool
Cuz she's still preoccupied
With 1985

Woo Hoo Hooooo!

Bruce Springsteen, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV (Woohoo)
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she's uncool (1985)
Cuz she's still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985


Everyone has formspring, should I get one? I'm undecided.

Oh well, I'll think about it later. Now I'm just bopping out to my ipod. Yeah I said bopping, I like bopping ok, bopping is fun.

I realised how small I was today, it came in an epiphany as john lifted me into the air with one arm, and kept me there. I really am small haha.

Quote of the day: "Why must you put my steamroller in your pants? I mean really, you put everything I own in your pants! Why?!"

Just Thought I Should Say...

I just felt the need to say I have finished my Chinese Cultural Identity narrative. I will write a proper blog tomorrow night. That is all. :):):)

YAY me, btw.

If You Can't Fix It With Duct Tape You Aren't Using Enough

Hair appointment for Friday! Well, I think so. Mum's going in tomorrow to confirm for me. Yay. Get keen :):):)

Head under water
And you tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands

I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see

I intended to write quite a bit of my English narrative this afternoon. You know what happened? It didn't save to my flash drive. So I could accomplish nothing. So I wrote out a heap of economics notes instead.

"Hey Bec, do you know what this fruit is?" *holds up a nectarine*
"Sure, it's a nectarine, haven't you had one before?"
"No, are they nice?"
"Yeah, a bit like a peach I guess, without the fluff"
"I've never had a peach..."
"You poor, neglected child."

^^ Everyone should experience peaches and nectarines, otherwise their life has not been fully lived. Let it also be known, that this person has never had a Sunnyboy iceblock either, deprived child.

You know what's making my laugh recently? The itty bitty year seveners who are currently 'in love' and wearing more foundation on one day than my whole group wears in a week. I mean, they're twelve. Then they call each other 'sluts' and have to go to 'anger management' to control their rage. What rage? Who has rage in year seven? I find it hilarious. What are they fighting about? "You dirty little slut! How dare you bring a Chloe Bratz doll to school?! I'm obviously Chloe, you're such a Yasmin!! Whore!!!" *slapping fest*

Well, that's how I imagine it to go down anyway.

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I also find it amusing the music students are saying that everyone's starting to go on about how they don't go to class again. It's funny coz I've actually heard people say it. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against the music students, I'm friends with a few of them, I just find it amusing that they're so notorious as the 'music students'. Probably coz they've told me how much they hate the label, I find it ironic that they can never really live it down. No offence guys, just appeals to my sense of humour :)

Speaking of music students, I got my script for the musical the other day. I know. :| Brooke and I are wedding guests. Hahaha. Oh well, should be fun I guess, I'm hoping I don't actually have to dance, because contrary to what I've previously said, Brooke says we don't actually dance. Looks like I don't need that in with the choreographer anymore :P

I've fought it for a long time now
While drowning in a river of denial
I washed up, fixed up, picked up
All my broken things

OMG In after school religion today, an announcement calling "Mr Prior, Mr Sutton or anyone" because a school goat escaped the Agriculture department. Funniest thing I've ever heard. You would have sworn the goat was attacking the office lady, she made it sound so dramatic. Maybe she was just trying not to laugh.

I'm really keen for this Twilight retreat for our year group (the time in the afternoon, not the book series) it should be good fun :)

But can you hear me say?
Don’t throw me away
And there’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime

Quote of the day: "He has a bad memory masquerading as a clear conscience"

Praying For Love In A Lapdance

What goes on? Well today I had a morning class at 7:30. Then no more periods until last period, when I had Business Studies. That's a hell of a lot of study periods. Some actually spent working. Mostly I wrote a letter. It's pretty awesome too. If it's not appreciated I'll... well I wouldn't actually be that angry to warrant a consequence, but I would be fairly disappointed.

New oven Thursday :D Yay. Booking my haircut tomorrow coz I forgot when I got home this arvo.

I want to go to Eve's and go on a shopping spree because I saw these really nice outfits when I drove past there today. I must remember to do that.

Hey,
You know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own,
So don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else.

I had to write the worst possible Gothic Horror opening I could manage for homework, so I shall share it with you. It's actually so bad it's funny, worth the read:



I squealed with terror as I viewed his ruby eyes which were like the ruby in my necklace, the necklace which now proved a useful target for him to single in on my pulsing pulse, a beacon on a lighthouse on the isolated rock on which I now stood defenceless as a crane in a storm of misfortune being chased by a vicious eagle, or maybe a bat because that is what my attacker was second ago, before he chased me down this dark, deserted alley, his black cloak like Severus Snape's as he wildly cried "I vant to suck your blood!" flapping his arms after me, oh how i regretted leaving my garlic out of last night's dinner, which I realised the leftovers would go to waste as I assumed I wouldn't be around to eat it and the cat can't open the fridge door, as I can't open the fridge door of freedom from the prince of darkness about to slurp out my soul, or at least my blood, which is just as bad.


Awful right? I'm pretty proud of it's hideousness personally. Haha.


I found out I'm in the school musical today. Shocked? So am I. I'm a dancer... which is even more shocking because it's been years since I did jazz ballet, so I don't think that's going to help me. Bonus? Kaileigh's choreographing, well not by herself, but still, so she can help me learn the dance moves :)

Extension English conversation:
Mr Knight: Ok girls, what's a better word for 'tease'?
Kaileigh: Bec Herbert

^^ She loves me.


Lose your mind.
Lose it now.
Lose your clothes
In the crowd.
We're delirious.
Tear it down
'Til the sun comes back around.

N-now we're getting so smashed.
Knocking over trash cans.
Everybody breakin' bottles
It's a filthy hot mess.
Gonna get faded
I'm not the designated
Driver so
I don't give a
I don't give a
I don't give a

So at the end of the day, I'm loving life :):):) I'm not sorry for anything, because I haven't done anything wrong and if you try and ruin the natural (and by natural we're talking endorphins people, not plants :P ) high I'm on be prepared to feel my wrath. And I don't want to get my wrath on, I'm in too good a mood :D

Quote of the day (from arguably the best modern author in the world): "There's always going to be bad stuff out there. But here's the amazing thing -- light trumps darkness, every time. You stick a candle into the dark, but you can't stick the dark into the light." — Jodi Picoult (Change of Heart)

He Tastes Like You Only Sweeter

Let's just get this out there: salt water does not wash your hair. Silly boy. :P

Parents are home again. Apparently I have to get my hair cut in installments. Yeah not going to happen. How about when you drop me off at the hair dresser and I just tell her what I want? Installments. Pffft. Not going to happen.

Kaileigh's over tomorrow :D yay

"Whether it's drugs, sex or death" - MTV add haha

I'm currently trying to convince John to give me a massage in study period tomorrow, because my back hurts. He says only if I play nicely. Grr.

Brady made me cry today. With some sad cancer people dying thing. Hmm a bit of a wussy thing on my behalf, but cancer's a bit of a touchy subject.

Nineties at nine is blaring through my house at the moment. Pretty good.

First week term 3 Tuesday - get keen. Going to be epic. Haha

You know what I just realised? I haven't been waterskiing in so long. I used to go out like every second day in the Summer holidays and most weekends. When we get the ski boat, I will again. Silly motor isn't strong enough anymore, it's getting a bit old. Until then I'll have to just get driven around on the back of motorbikes. Haha Oh and as of two seconds ago, we're going jetskiing. Get keen!

Might be going to skyfire with Sarah this weekend. I hope I can, it'll be so much fun. Please please please let me be able to go.

Not much to report really, and I'm needed elsewhere, so I'll leave you there.

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

Oh how I love that song.

Quote of the day: Thanks for the memories. He tastes like you only sweeter.

Coz It Feels Like Stealing Hearts Calling Your Name From The Crowd

I love superwog. Seriously youtube that shit. Sooo funny.

So Brady tells me I should blog about him. Hmm. Yay Brady :):):) But apparently I need to write more. Hm what to write about Brady... he's a good kid? Ergh Brady why make me blog about you? Difficult little boy... haha. So I'll put it in his words.

xx Bec says:
what do u want me to say?
Brady says:
talk bout my stunning features

So Brady has stunning features? Hahaha. Perverted little boy who's always good for a laugh and talks crap, but in a good way. Like about how he wants a booty call in his closet. Oh and probably the smartest thing he's ever said: "omg bec you're my hero". Yay :D


There we go. That should keep him happy.

Moving on.

So tennis only lasted an hour and a half today. Four sets in an hour and a half. I think we set some new record. No pun intended. Easiest match ever. It was heaps chilled :D So I got home and studied for eight hours. My hands are so sore from writing :/

We found a snake and her babies in our yard today. My dog chased one of the baby snakes and it's currently hiding in one of our sensor lights. Yepp there's a little hole in the sensor light, and the snake slithered into it. Clever little bugger.

I've been living off coffee lately. Kaileigh's a bad influence lol. It's the only way I can fit everything in. Actually I think I'll go get another coffee now...
Ok got one. Where was I?

Getting my hair cut and nose pierced soon! Sorry for going on about it, but I'm so keen. Gonna be awesome :D

Not much to report really, oh Izzak sliced his finger open at tennis. That wasn't too fun for him. Silly boy. Shouldn't be throwing his racquet around. :P

But as for me, not much goes on. Although I smiled when I got a text message in reply to 'what you doing?' as 'lying in bed thinking about you' hahaha. I laughed, was pretty funny. :):)

Though a lady may repell your advance, she'll be kind
As long as you intimate what's on your mind
You may tell her you're hungry
That you need to be swung
You may ask her to see how your etchings are hung
Or mention the ashes that need to be hauled
Put the lid on a saucepan
Even lay is not too bold
But the moment you're forthright
Get ready to duck
Coz the girl isn't born yet
Who'll stand for 'let's fuck'

Quote of the day: "Forgiveness and letting go are steps on our road back to happiness" - Tina Dayton

And Just When The Critics Had Their Doubts

So if you feel me let me know
Come on now what you waiting for
My engine's ready to explode
So start me up and watch me go

So today was my Business Studies test. Kill me now. Ok, maybe that's a bit dramatic. But still, death in a test. Well the test itself wasn't that bad, but my poor timing skills without a visible clock resulted in me missing the last three questions. Which were only 1 and 2 mark ones, but still. Not a good way to start my Business Studies assesment portfolio lol.

So John got around with 'I <3 Bec' written on his arm today. Not sure how that got there ^.^ Miss Harris didn't find it as funny as the rest of us though. Whoops.

I don't know why they say that it's so bad being kicked when you're down. Coz in my opinion it's when you just think you're in with an advantage and the rug gets pulled out from underneath you, that's when it hurts the most. It's like the taste of happiness you had five seconds ago is a nice little reminder of how bad things are looking right now. Like when Australia won the womens relay swimming at the Olympics, so they jumped in the pool. Disqualified. In a few short minutes, they went from world champions to absolutely hating themselves for making such a silly, seemingly insignificant mistake. At least that had cause and effect. Sometimes though, shitty things happen to ruin your good mood, just because you were a bit too happy. Or because God has a sick sense of humour. One or the other. So that just happened to me, just when I thought I had the advantage again, a spanner is thrown in the works - and just when the critics had their doubts. Maybe Kaileigh's right, maybe they're just a complete dickhead. I just had an idea. Kaileigh, Brady and Ally will kill me if they read this and figure out what I'm thinking, but I'm starting to think it's time for the more drastic measures. Hey, it could work.

Bright side? I'm so over it, I think I'm slowly becoming immune. It's like a little voice in my head goes 'you saw this coming, it's not that much of a shock, wake up to yourself'. So I do. Move on.

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you
Over-think
Always speak
Cryptically

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You!
You don't really want to stay, no
You!
But you don't really want to go

So I think I have a plan of attack. Hmm we'll see how this works out.

I'm gonna get roared. Haha. Oh well. Unless they provide an alternative, I'm going ahead with my plan.

At first, when I see you cry
Yeah it makes me smile
Yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Heaps keen for my haircut and nose piercing ehh. I'm just really, really pumped. Time for some change. A new look and hopefully a bit of a new me. :):)

Quote of the day: "Tell me whom you love and I will tell you who you are." Houssaye

You Got A Piece Of Me

I guess this means you take back all you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

So after last night, I think I've had quite enough drama in my week. Pretty keen for an uneventful blog post in relation to anything that could potentially result in an insurance claim.

So after training today, I did three straight hours of study, and this is part of my hour break before I do another two. Joy.

Business Studies test tomorrow. :| :| :| stressing.

You know what's always fun? Getting a text message from a guy friend asking for sex. Haha I wish I was kidding. But that's as eventful as my day has been. Loving the lack of drama, it's so much more chilled.

Only have half an hour of freedom left. Crap better write something.

Pressure doesn't suit me well. Umm I guess I'll sum up my message of this blog with an awesome song:

If I'm a bad person,
You don't like me.
I guess I'll go,
Make my own way.
It's a circle,
A mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.

(Chorus) Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,
When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
Oh we're not the same,
The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good.
You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

This is the best thing that could've happened.
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it.
It's not a war.
No, it's not a rapture.
I'm just a person, but you can't take it,
The same tricks that once fooled me.
They won't get you anywhere.
I'm not the same kid from your memory.
Now I can fend for myself.

(Chorus)

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

Quote of the day: "soz, no casual sex for you!"

Fire

I have had an epiphany. I'm going to change my hair and get my nose pierced. That's about it really. I'm going to cut my hair to like boob - make sure you note that I said boob height, as in below the shoulders, NOT BOB HEIGHT - get heaps more layers, and have my fringe shorter and more feathery I guess you could call it. So I just rang mum to tell her all of this, figured it'd be the nice thing to do. Boy did I cop it. "Don't do anything until I get home, your hair is who you are you can't just chop it all off blah blah blah blah". Yeah, nice one. I'll wait til she gets home, coz that's only three days and I couldn't get into town before then anyway, but I'm still getting it done. Not like she can stop me anyway. But I don't understand why she freaked out. It's not like I'm dying my hair black and getting a tattoo of a snake on my face. Then she could whinge.

So what else is new? Well not a lot really. Handed in my RE assignment today - just a heads up, if you carry a mini coffin on the bus and around school, people will ask questions. Lots of fun though, coz you can really freak them out. I think Lydia's explanation that my pet rat died was probably the best, certainly freaked out some year seven girls. Haha.

If I do have a kid, a girl - coz if it's a boy I'm naming it Zeke and giving it to Fan and Kaileigh to raise, according to our latest maths lesson - I promise not to freak out about hair cuts and piercings. Go for it.

School Photos. Ergh. My hair fell out on one side, which made it look messy, but idc, so they tell me to pin it back.

So I'm typing this as I watch the fire brigade drive away. Not even kidding. I'm shaking and the dog's crying and we need a new oven, but that's the extent of the damage. So our oven caught on fire. Wall of flame fire. Rang 000, fire brigade came out, fire extinguishers, took out the oven from the wall because it's burnt to a crisp. The house is full of smoke and I can't stop coughing.

So much for dinner ehh?

There's white powder from fire extinguishers everywhere. All through the kitchen, all through the loungeroom and dining room. Everything's either white from extinguishy stuff or black from ash and soot. Apparently the roof's not on fire, and neither is the wall behind the stove, but it's not wise to have electricity in the kitchen for a while. Extra heat might cause another fire. And we don't want that.

Trip to the insurance company tomorrow, need a new stove and hot plates. Oh and the cupboards above the stove. They're fucked. Throwing out all the food now, apparently they might be contaminated with the extinguishy stuff.

That was terrifying.

So suddenly I'm not in a blogging mood, and considering this had been open on my laptop for a few hours, I think it's time to give it a break.

Quote of the day: 000 asking me to spell Bergalia five times before they sent help

Don't be a little bitch with your chitchat

So I'm sufficiently lost. Not in the sense that my life has no direction or anything, just in the sense that I'm sitting here at my desk with no motivation to do my homework, or work on my english narrative. I'm also lost in my opinions. Which for anyone that knows me can tell you, is odd for me. I guess I'm an opinionated person. Not in a 'i'm right you're wrong' way, just a 'I appreciate you think that, but I'm standing by what I believe'. Well right now, my beliefs are limited.

Don't take that in a 'well Bec's gone all aetheist on us' because I'm not talking about the bigger picture, just about my little life at the present time and very near future. Yesterday if you had asked me what I wanted, right then and there, I could have told you. Now, i'm not so sure. I guess options do that to you, when you have too many options, it's hard to stick to just one. I'm glad I do have options, mind you, but I'm failing to find defining differences between them.

I'm starting to think that I'm too exhausted to make choices. I'm always doing something, that time where you could chill at home is now gone. Well this is as close as it gets for me. So I'll tell you, my ever faithful blog followers, my current dilemma.

But first, some hilarious antics from last night with Kaileigh. So we were joking around with one of our guy friends right (names will not be mentioned to protect the innocent, and not so innocent alike) and well, you can imagine. We were high on sugar and just wanted to do something funny. Long story short, we ended up convincing him that we wanted to have a threesome with him. I know, it was hilarious. So after having a good old laugh about it, and having him all not knowing what to say or do - did I mention he has a girlfriend? That bit's important. So being a good boyfriend, or coz he was feeling cruel, either way, he tells his girlfriend that Kaileigh and I were planning on having a threesome with him. Naturally, this didn't impress her. Not that she was angry at us, she was concerned that I was going to steal him off her. Well then we had to convince her it was a joke, and that I wasn't after her boyfriend. Which made her quite relieved, and now we all had a good, long laugh about it today. No drama, noone's mad. Just thought I'd share the hilarity with you. I mean it's not everyday a girl congratulates you for convincing her boyfriend you wanted to have a threesome with him. Glad she has a good sense of humour :)

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here


So where was I? Oh yeah, I'm feeling lost with a predicament. So here's my predicament. I can't make up my mind in relation to the old teenage cliche - which guy should you pursue? Trust me, I'll keep this brief, I'm not having a bitch about teenage issues and how much I'm 'in love' or whatever. So yeah, that's about it. I have a few options, and I can't figure out which one to go after. Not that big of a deal, but it seems to be some good blogging material.

Oh, and a certain memory keeps playing itself over and over in my mind. Joy. Yay for photographic memories :| Hahaha.

School photos tomorrow. Ergh. Death. I don't appreciate that we can't have our hair out. I know I sound superficial, but I don't care. I mean it's a bloody photo, as if it really matters if our hair is out - what's the worst that could happen? Someone looks nicer? OH GOD THAT CAN'T HAPPEN!!!

Grr. Well there's my rant.

I wanna feel reckless
I wanna live it up, just because
I wanna feel weightless
Cause that would be enough


I also have a shout out. Because today was a sad, sad day. RIP <3 you little legend :)

I feel like dancing. A lot. It's been a feeling I've had for a few days now. I think I'm going stir crazy. Lol. I'm keen for tennis then, go somewhere that isn't home or school. Yay tennis courts. Hopefully it's not as hot as last week.

Cause all I really want is to be with you
Feeling like I matter too
If I didn't blow the whole thing years ago
I might be here with you

So what's new? Hmmm... well John wasn't at school today, so I actually got work done in study period haha. Apart from that... not a hell of a lot. I found my webcam! Yay! Not that I use it, but it's nice to have the option. Which is ironic, considering I was talking about options annoying me before. So here's the general rule: appliances are allowed to provide multiple options, boys should be easier to decide about. Yeah I'm patenting that shit. OMG scariest music on my Gothic Horror presentation today. I scared myself. Not even kidding. "Demon children singing" was how Kaileigh described it. I decided turning it off was more productive that describing its scariness. Yet, I just copied them all onto my ipod. Yay for scaring the shit out of myself :S

I'm not so good with the scary.

Well this blog is getting rather long, so I might cut it off here, for fear of boring you all.

Quote of the day: "What was that? No! Don't look back, don't even dare! Better not to know what might be there" - voiceover for my assignment(the one that terrified us)

:):):):)

Life is far too important to take seriously :)

I've been working on my english narrative draft/scaffold all day, I'm taking a break to update this. When I've finished this assignment, I think I'll dance. Or sing. Or sacrafice a small woodland creature. Something celebratory anyway.

Oh great, I have my Ext English presentation tomorrow. Oh well, at least I'm only presenting it to two people. That's gotta be good for the nerves.

I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you only sweeter

Apart from english, I'm in an easily amused mood today, so I thought I'd share with you some of my main forms of amusement
- Phineas and Ferb
-People watching - when you make up their life stories
- The weird and wonderful situations my group finds themselves in - "Guys! Guys I'm here! I'm not dead! Guys
- The fact that he has a girlfriend, yet keeps telling me about 'when we get together'
- The fact that I've never even hinted to wanting to be with him, he just assumes I do? :S
- Chipmunk versions of songs
- That Kaileigh, Sarah and myself have started giving people theme songs
- That Dad told me to put the dog's beanbag in my room so she doesn't get lonely while him and Mum are out of town
- All Time Low video clips
- Jodi Picoult books <3
- Knowing who people are referring to in blogs and statuses
- My dog, who squeaks and purs more than she barks
- That my ipod clock is an hour fast, and everytime I look at it, I trip out, without fail
- Allocating songs to situations in your friends lives
- Realising how insanely stubborn I am
- Reading past blog posts and having a different view to what you did a few nights before
- Guitar Hero
- The Sims 3
- Gossip Girl
- Veronica Mars
- Explicit sexual talk for the express purpose of making the people eavesdropping on your conversation uncomfortable

Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir
Voulez vous coucher avec moi
He come through with the money and the garter belts
I let him know we bout that cake straight up the gate
We independent women, some mistake us for whores
I'm sayin' why spend mine when I can spend yours
Disagree?
Well that's you and I'm sorry
Imma keep playing these cats out like Atari
Wear high heel shoes get love from the dudes
Four bad ass chicks from the Moulin Rouge

I don't have anything else on my mind really, I'll try to think of something more controversial or in depth for next time. :P Until then,

"Drop the idea that you are Atlas carrying the world on your shoulders. The world would go on even without you. Don't take yourself so seriously." - Norman Vincent Peale

xxx :):):)

The Devil's in the Details

Today was way too hot to play tennis. Too much effort, kinda just gave up in the end. We thought by throwing the last set we'd still win. Turns out we can't count. We ended up tying. Which actually for memory is wrong... we won 4 games in the last set. Haha we did win. Just wrote the games down wrong. So in reality we won, on paper, and officially, however, we tied. Oh well, what are you going to do?

Finished my Ext. English presentation... I'm praying the animations and sounds are compatible with the school's system. If not, I may cry. I've granted myself a break from work, given that I've only got one more assesment to worry about... not counting the Business Studies and Maths tests, because I don't have to hand them in.

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

I've noticed that when I accidentally get lost in thought and don't reply, people think I'm ignoring/angry at them. Chances are if I don't answer you, I've forgotten I need to, or I just didn't hear you. So don't stress :)

My grandparents are minding our house this week coz my parents are in QLD on business - remind me again why I said 'oh no, I'll stay home, I have assesments due'?? <-- stupid move.

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out
I'm nothing without you

I've been told that although my blog is happy, which is apparently a nice change, it's a bit cryptic. Sorry about that. I guess the only way I can make it more clear is to point out the song lyrics and quotes are all relevant, just my way of mixing it up a bit so its not just me rabbitting on about my life. I hope that helps.

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go

So just a random message to those who do know what I'm talking about: I'm not giving up. I don't care if you'd love me to just fade away and let everything go back to 'normal'. But we were never really normal. Guess you're just going to have to put up with me, coz I'm sure I'm even just a little bit right. Or I'm completely wrong, but I have two back up plans going at the moment, and they're looking just as good as Plan A. I guess in the end, I win either way. Which is awesome for me at least. Maybe I'm just stubborn, but you know me, and you know I don't like to lose.
(I may sound selfish, but I don't care. Because if you think this sounds selfish, chances are you have no idea what I'm talking about. Let's not judge what we don't understand.)
Doesn't matter so much what happens on an individual basis, just as long as I win out in the end. And don't deny it, you know I will, eventually. The Devil's in the details babe.

I was trying to make mum feel guilty for going to QLD without me this afternoon, telling her I was in my 'hour of need'. Apparently I'm full of shit. I thought it was a good try. I mean for all she knows I could be in an hour of need. I'm not, but I could be. According to mum, I hate the sight of my own blood so I'm not going to cut myself, plus the fact I'm not depressed, means that she shouldn't be worried about me. Oh and I don't usually eat much anyways, so eating disorders aren't an option either.

Guess she showed me.

Quote of the day (I laughed xD): The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.

Hells yeah weekend :D

So I've decided Kaileigh and Sarah are right, it is a dog eat dog world, and everyone's so caught up in trying to make everything more dramatic than it really is. So this is my epiphany: no more games. No more bullshit. Just simple honesty, even when it is blatant, and whatever happens happens. No regrets and all that jazz. Not much of an epiphany maybe, but it's something.

With this epiphany, I've decided to give myself a fresh start. So everything is chilled and I'm just keen to get on with life.

So cut to the chase kid
Coz I know you don't care what my middle name is
I wanna be naked and you're wasted

Life isn't bad and gloomy, no matter what your blogs say. I'm not saying you can't be sad, just that you need some perspective. I'm not idealistic, I'm realistic. Because there's tonnes of people that have it worse than you, so harden the fuck up and be happy :)

So now I find myself in a bit of a predicament. Haha the situations I get myself into, sometimes I wonder how I manage. I seem to attract guys with girlfriends. I'm no homewrecker, that's just how it seems to work. Which makes life pretty damn funny. But I find everything funny lately.

Take me, show me
The corners of your empty room
The trouble we could get in to
Just fake it for me
Disregard the footsteps
And we'll never tell a soul

Another epiphany, woah another one you say? We're deep tonight aren't we?
Well here it goes - don't take yourself or life too seriously, have fun, and keep secrets secret. Sounds simple enough, but that way, everyone wins.

I'm in a really good mood as of last night, I'm not too sure why. Ok maybe I do know why. Pretty much I'm back to normal. I had my week of getting caught up in drama and other people's bullshit, and now I'm happy to go back to being me and pushing my luck with pretty much everything I do. Including the two of them. Oh well, they still love me :P

Finally: If you're trying to bring up shit that's in the past, don't expect me to listen. Unless it's like a 'haha remember when'. If you're going to try and talk about a 'what if' or a 'it would have been better if' or 'lets talk about the reasons _____ happened' just don't. Honestly I don't want to hear it. So go annoy someone else, I don't know. Unless you're one of my close friends and you're in need of a DnM, not interested, soz.

Care for some enlightenment? My quote of the day:
"No, we don't cheat. And even if we did, I'd never tell you." Tommy Lasorda

One by one my assignments are finished, yet english still sits there staring at me, mocking my inability to be chinese. Which is what I should be doing now.

It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

Tennis training was interesting. I don't know why I was such a bitch, it just happened. It was like I couldn't control what I was saying, and even when I was trying to be polite, I sounded so very sarcastic. But I think now it's fine. Should be chilled for Saturday anyway. Guess we'll wait and see.

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go

So there's something I simply must say: You're not in love. This isn't direceted at anyone in particular, just at the general teenage "we went out for a few weeks/months and now we're in love" population. Are you willing to spend the rest of your lives together? I didn't think so.

And now for your entertainment, 21 things I'd love to say to people that I can't/won't. I know it's not orginal, but oh well :)

1. I guess you cheating on her was proof of how much you like her then?
2. I can't remember the last time I heard someone say something nice about you
3. Don't be a jerk to her just because you can't have her
4. Thank you for talking me through everything, I'll have that hug tomorrow :)
5. Grow up, you're acting like a 12 year old
6. It's not that bad, wake up to yourself
7. You can do so much better
8. You picked the right one
9. If you go through with this, you're an idiot
10. Just tell them, they won't judge you :)
11. You're the luckiest girl I know at the moment, so cheer up
12. Stay away and don't come back
13. No matter how hurt I may seem, you brighten my week
14. If only you weren't off limits...
15. Your girlfriend's really funny looking, soz
16. I wish you'd tell me what the secret discussions are about, just like to be in the loop
17. I'm not avoiding you, I just don't particularly want to talk to you
18. You're so stupid you didn't realise the chick you were screwing was engaged... to another chick - yeah that's right you moron - your girlfriend has a girlfriend
19. Come home soon!!
20. I'm sorry you're ashamed of me or whatever
21. Just coz you're playing nice, doesn't mean I don't realise you're still sleezy

I'll leave you with my quote of the day:
"Once you had put the pieces back together, even though you may look intact, you were never quite the same as you'd been before the fall." — Jodi Picoult

There's something wrong with that level of perfection. It needs to be violated.

Two essays down and feeling good.
I don't think i've bullshitted that much ever before than what I did in my re essay today. Fair sure Miss is gonna notice too, oh well...
You know what's awesome? Nesquik. I'm like addicted to it.
I finished decorating my coffin for re, so im pretty much cruising assesment wise these days.

Dad's been on hold with Telstra for an hour now, and he's just left the phone on the bench on speaker and all i can hear is that annoying 'on hold' music, I'm gonna laugh if he walks out of the room and a person comes on. Before he was arguing with the computer, apparently it couldn't understand he was saying 'wireless'.

Kaileigh set my wallpaper as a picture of her, and although it's a lovely picture, it keeps freaking me out when I open my phone... just Kaileigh staring at me haha.

So my rents bought a laptop for the shop today, which I've spent all afternoon setting up. Well i lied, it took about five seconds. But still. It's half the size of my laptop and it's weird to use. Like those little ones the school has, but not as small.

Haha the telstra man just picked up the phone, he has a hectic accent and Dad's not gonna be able to understand him, at all. This is hilarious. I feel sorry for both of them. Oh wait, maybe not. Coz dad just said 'mate it's good to speak to an Australian'. Guess I heard wrong.

Well I can't think of anything to write, so I might just leave you there.

Until next time, I'll leave you with a quote of the day:
"There's something wrong with that level of perfection. It needs to be violated." - Chuck Bass

FYI: If cuddling was the best part, he didn't do it right

Heyy

Well I guess let's start with the basics:
-Born 7/7/93
-Love tennis
-Hate liars
-Blonde

So after that useless information night last night, Kaileigh and I went to the pub, here's some of the more memorable quotes from the night:
"It's Steve!!!"
"Well I'd be cranky too if I only had one arm"
"I need to tell you something!" "What?!" *falls off chair*
"When do I get a credit card?" "When you get a job" "Like thats ever going to happen..."
"OMG GUYS SHUSH KAILEIGH'S ON THE PHONE!!!"
"Can I just order here mate?" "Nah just come around here thanks" *takes three steps* "Any moment now he's gonna forget what we wanted..." "OI BEC WHAT DID YOU WANT?"
*Chef swearing in background* "Be careful he'll throw a saucepan at you!" *crash* "SEE!"
"You see those guys out there, they..." "Already checked them out, they're not attractive" "Well I was going to say they were in the shop earlier, but ok"
"Graham what would you say if I told you I was a lesbian?" "I'd tell you that you were an idiot Kaileigh, because I know you and you're not" "But what if I.." "Idiot"


Well that's all I can remember at the moment, but to be honest I'm surprised they didn't kick us out. Everyone kept glaring at us and giving us weird looks because we never stopped laughing. We were probably also a tad loud. Oh well.

So today someone offered me help, and for the life of me I didn't see it coming. I mean it was so very very random. It's not that i'm not grateful, I just didn't consider him to be someone who would want to help me in this particular situation. Even if his advice ended with 'so don't let this turn you into a lesbian coz he screwed you over, I mean that'd be such a waste, any guy would be lucky to have you, he's just an idiot'. Haha.

Oh and if you're anyone except Brooke, Kaileigh, Sarah and two others who know who they are and you're reading this, thinking you know who the guy that 'screwed me over' is - you're wrong. Because you'll all be thinking along the lines of ex-boyfriends, and that's not it.

So school work is running my life at the moment, so I may just have to go and do some more of that, and the rest will be a story for another time.

I'll leave you with my quote of the day:
"FYI: If cuddling was the best part, he didn't do it right" - Logan Echolls


xx Bec