And Just When The Critics Had Their Doubts

So if you feel me let me know
Come on now what you waiting for
My engine's ready to explode
So start me up and watch me go

So today was my Business Studies test. Kill me now. Ok, maybe that's a bit dramatic. But still, death in a test. Well the test itself wasn't that bad, but my poor timing skills without a visible clock resulted in me missing the last three questions. Which were only 1 and 2 mark ones, but still. Not a good way to start my Business Studies assesment portfolio lol.

So John got around with 'I <3 Bec' written on his arm today. Not sure how that got there ^.^ Miss Harris didn't find it as funny as the rest of us though. Whoops.

I don't know why they say that it's so bad being kicked when you're down. Coz in my opinion it's when you just think you're in with an advantage and the rug gets pulled out from underneath you, that's when it hurts the most. It's like the taste of happiness you had five seconds ago is a nice little reminder of how bad things are looking right now. Like when Australia won the womens relay swimming at the Olympics, so they jumped in the pool. Disqualified. In a few short minutes, they went from world champions to absolutely hating themselves for making such a silly, seemingly insignificant mistake. At least that had cause and effect. Sometimes though, shitty things happen to ruin your good mood, just because you were a bit too happy. Or because God has a sick sense of humour. One or the other. So that just happened to me, just when I thought I had the advantage again, a spanner is thrown in the works - and just when the critics had their doubts. Maybe Kaileigh's right, maybe they're just a complete dickhead. I just had an idea. Kaileigh, Brady and Ally will kill me if they read this and figure out what I'm thinking, but I'm starting to think it's time for the more drastic measures. Hey, it could work.

Bright side? I'm so over it, I think I'm slowly becoming immune. It's like a little voice in my head goes 'you saw this coming, it's not that much of a shock, wake up to yourself'. So I do. Move on.

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you
Over-think
Always speak
Cryptically

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You!
You don't really want to stay, no
You!
But you don't really want to go

So I think I have a plan of attack. Hmm we'll see how this works out.

I'm gonna get roared. Haha. Oh well. Unless they provide an alternative, I'm going ahead with my plan.

At first, when I see you cry
Yeah it makes me smile
Yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Heaps keen for my haircut and nose piercing ehh. I'm just really, really pumped. Time for some change. A new look and hopefully a bit of a new me. :):)

Quote of the day: "Tell me whom you love and I will tell you who you are." Houssaye